In My Daughter's Eyes

What is it about music that makes me so emotional? It's like my ears fill up with all the words my tongue can't seem to find, and spill into my heart with such force. An eruption is inevitable. Sometimes I like to just sit in the car, music blaring with the windows up until I can't hear myself think anymore. That's when the tears begin to burst.

When it's all over I feel a sense of release, relief, and renewal. I often conceal my emotions and every so often lack confidence in myself. When my head is cleared, I remember I am intelligent, creative, and extremely compassionate. I have so much to give. I often think about what kind of mother to Sydney I will be in the future. Right now is the easy part. I only hope I can offer the support and guidance that I never had growing up. I want her to experience the unconditional love that I never received.

I heard a Martina McBride song on the radio tonight. I just love her. Her voice is so powerful. Her song "In My Daughter's Eyes" made my eyes swell up with tears. Good tears. It wasn't the first time I heard the song. But it was the first time I've heard it since becoming a mother to a special little girl. I wanted to share the lyrics. They really hit home.

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
It puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes