The Hermit a.k.a. Mommy

I used to be quite the party animal pre-baby. I would go out with or without friends. I enjoyed going to the movies alone or hangin at a friends house doing nothing. I was constantly on the run between working, college, and Vegas bars. Looking back, I really have no idea how I had the energy to do anything. Maybe being young has something to do with it. Maybe it was my drive in search to find myself, and I finally have. Now that I have a baby, things have changed dramatically. It's not because I don't have a babysitter within 3000 miles. I don't have a problem taking my baby with me. I just prefer staying home. I actually like not having anywhere to go. I like that at any day of the week Sydney and I can stay in our pajamas all day long and just snuggle in bed with her toys scattered around. I like cleaning up spit-up, diapers, and laundry. I like being able to see every blink and smirk Sydney makes. I even LOVE not having to "share" her with anyone. Shame on me for being so selfish. :) I don't want to spend a single moment of her infancy wasting time in the car or with people who are merely acquaintances. I'm sure these are the reasons she's a Momma's girl, but is that such a bad thing?

I do worry that Sydney doesn't have any interaction with other babies, but we're working on that and hoping for a sibling in the near future. There are times I need to get away and I know it's only going to get even more crazy with two. I'm looking forward to the challenge. In the meantime, I continue embracing every hardship of motherhood and relishing in every moment of baby bliss.