Separation Anxiety

Am I the only mom who has worse separation anxiety than their baby? I'm not talking about having a guilt trip for leaving her or worrying about her daddy taking care of her. It's just, there's nothing I could possibly be doing that's more important than being with Sydney. Nothing. I actually feel slightly depressed while I'm away from her. Other moms tell me how even though they love their children, they need time away from being a mommy. I just don't get it. Do I need sleep? Yes. Do I need dates with her Daddy? Absolutely. Do I need to keep doing things I love so I don't lose my sense of self? You bet! But I do not need time away from being a mommy. I just don't get it. Do you know how fast Sydney is growing?! Maybe it takes a few years (and gray hairs) to understand.

Today I was leaving the house for only two hours, and I literally had tears in my eyes when I put her down for her nap. I hugged her extra long and she laughed at me. The little stinker laughed at me! I thought about her the entire time, and found it hard to enjoy myself. When I returned home, I didn't even get the door open all the way before yelling, "MOMMY'S HOME!". Sydney put her arms up for me and and giggled the most beautiful laugh I've never heard. I practically melted in my flip flops.

Every moment of every day, my heart grows larger because of her.