My whole life I've been a planner, neat-freak, and organizer. A Virgo and perfectionist. Everything had it's place and I was never late for appointments. I got to sleep when I was tired.
Now I'm a new mom. It all started when I was put on bedrest for four long weeks while pregnant. I had to let my house go. I stopped working. I had lost all control over my life. If I couldn't do it from my bed, it wasn't getting done. When we came home from the hospital, my only tasks were feeding and changing my baby. Feeding myself was only made possible because of Jason. I slept in 15 minute intervals-if at all.
Almost five months later, I'm finally getting a handle on motherhood. Everything is still a mess, but it's an organized mess. Laundry never seems to be done, but it's in the dryer or neatly piled on my dresser. My house is consumed with baby stuff, but each item has it's designated place. I have 27 things to do, but they're all on a neatly drafted list. I've learned to relax and not be so anal (in my terms anyway!). Sure I yell at Jason for leaving his socks on the floor, but at least I'm not letting it ruin my day. I'm embracing every mess. I'm always running 20 minutes late, but doesn't seem so bad when it's for good reason. I can't help spending extra time giving Sydney kisses or changing my mind on which cute outfit I want her to wear that day. My baby is happy, healthy, and loved. She comes first and is more important than anything else in my world.
Life is good.